being a mommy

So as it turns out being a mom has changed me in ways I would have never imagined. I remember today a year ago, I was sitting at work, exhausted from standing on my feel all day cutting hair at 8 months pregnant also while having Gestational De Quervain's Tenosynovitis (yes that's a fancy term for Tendinitis) thinking "Only 1 more day and I will be off for my maternity leave and I will have 4 weeks until he is here, I can clean the house, finish setting up and decorating his nursery, get everything packed for the hospital and relax before he gets here. Well Trenton had plan's of his own and 7 days later I ended up in the hospital because my blood pressure had gone through the roof, and the ironic part is that the week before my doctor said to me "Well Brianna, your the first patient I have had that seems to be getting healthier the longer you are pregnant, your blood pressure keeps getting better since the beginning of your pregnancy." Ha. So after 10 days of constant back and forth to the hospital and my doctor and being monitored and having to stay over night, they decided to go ahead and induce me (I was trying to have him natural). So 27 hours of Pitocin and some other drug that was supposed to keep me from having a seizure because of my blood pressure were counter acting each other we ended up going ahead with the c-section, which ended up being one of the scariest moments of my husbands life because while they were prepping me for the surgery they had him wait in a different room and out of nowhere doctors and nurses where running all over in a panic, so he thought something had happened to me because no one told him what was going on for 45 minutes, while the whole time I knew, but couldn't tell him because I was strapped to a bed in a different room (poor guy). There was an emergency c-section that had to happen before mine could (the other couple's baby came out healthy and fine after their c-section). So finally my turn came and 15 minutes later I heard the sweetest cry I have ever heard in my life (tearing up right now just thinking about it) and our little man was here June 15th, 2010 7lbs 2 oz @ 11:17pm. And life as I knew it change forever, here was this little child that I had to learn how to raise. I had to get rid of all my selfish ways and know that what I do matters more then every now. So now my priorities lay more in signing up for auto delivery of Pampers on Amazon (it is the cheapest way) then what am I going to go do on Friday night and I love it! This has been an amazing 11 months and I can not believe that in 2 1/2 weeks my little man will be 1 year old......crazy. crazy love.